Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Did you ever feel as you where in limbo?

According to the definitions, I found. Limbo is:

First, Often capitalized; an abode of souls that are according to Roman Catholic theology barred from heaven because of not having received Christian baptism.

Second; A: a place or state of restraint or confinement; B: a place or state of neglect or oblivion “Proposals kept in limbo”; C: an intermediate or transitional place or state; D: a state of uncertainty.

Being myself a Catholic this definitions are the closest things we know. We were taught at home, as much as in church about limbo; however, for some reason, my understanding of things was a little off for my younger age.

It was not until my teenage years, when I finally understood the concept. In addition, I was experiencing, not only physical changes in my life, but also on my psychic ability of seeing and hearing, what others can’t. “On time to time” It is like being in the Limbo and I will probably use this; c: final answer. Sometimes feeling isolated or like you do not belong.

In my daily life, it is sometimes like a juggling act with chainsaws in which the minimal distraction can cost you death, pain and suffering.

As Mexican married for three years and a half to an American citizen, it also can make you feel in Limbo. I will try to explain it the best way I can. It is not because we do not love each other, because we do. Most of the feeling comes from the isolation and racial discrimination caused by the lack of information, knowledge and understanding; with this last one, I will add up. “You should walk a mile in my shoes”

Right at this moment, I am happy to say I will be soon a resident of United States. Nevertheless, even becoming legal to live and work will not change the undeniable and painful truth, that every time we hear, watch or read a racial comment it will make us feel like in the Limbo. However, when we come out of limbo we will be stronger.

Let us review this if you ever felt like you do not belong or being rejected by any means, either because the color of your skin or your personal beliefs, religion or any other reason. Think of Limbo not only as the definition above said, think it as a retreat, where you can get stronger, inform, educated, with better understanding, compassion and forgiveness.

As I mentioned it on my last post the law of attraction, it is a universal law. If you think positive, it will bring positive into your life. However if you think negative the law of attraction will bring negative things into your life repeatedly.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

What does "out and about" really mean?

Personally, to me means is taking care of many things I would much rather ignore, like the undeniable truth of reality. Every one needs to face it. Otherwise, it will turn around and bite you in the butt. Nevertheless, we procrastinate about it and we refuse to believe many of the things, we are letting go for not being active in our day-to-day life.

Some people will say, “I wish the day had an extra hour to have enough time to do my errands.” Others will say, “All you need is to organize yourself time wise” and others may not even worry about saying anything to you at all because they are to worried about being out and about themselves.

The simplest way to say it might be “mine your own business”, which sounds rude and selfish. The reason why I say this is because let us face it. There is too much pain and suffering around us.

Oil prices raised and fall, unsure markets. Economically speaking.

Different natural like hurricanes, tsunamis, floods,  and man-made disasters, good example BP oil spill, which will make us, desensitize as human beings.

Yes, we have been having a lot of time on our hands to think on the meaning of it. In addition, I should say the deepest meaning of “Out and about”.

Not just doing our own things, but also helping others doing their own things, proving the helping hand finding solutions to common problems and stop being intolerant. It is too easy to blame others of what we are not doing than to blame the real villains here, “Our fears”.

If the phrase “out and about”, was properly broken down in two parts, and get basic meaning. I will do it the following way. OUT: looking and reaching out for others with the same ideals of greatness, and the belief that everything has a solution, also learn more what the power and law of attraction does because these will bring to you what you're asking for. ABOUT: on the move to find understanding all around or on all sides of the feelings of others movement to or among many different places, beliefs and cultures without negative taught.

After all, when somebody asked you what have you been doing and your answer is “out and about” think if you have been doing any of those things. Regardless your answer, it will be always your answer in addition, regardless of what I think. Are you reaching out and about others?

Note from the author:

My prolonged absence on the blog is being due to personal family and medical reasons I hope I will be able to continue blogging on a regular basis thanks and blessings to all.

Armando Abreu.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Snowy weather and a weird paradox:

Here, I am again sitting at the computer trying to bring some different contents of text to my readers. That way, I do not sound like I am only asking for economical support to become a resident, and ask every time for more readers.

On February 11, 2010 I was snuggle up in my covers in a good sleep and that all stop when my

my wife’s phone rang at 6:45 am here it was her supervisor asking her how soon she could come in to work because of the weather. I looked outside and it was snowing hard. It is not every day here in Texas that we see snowy days especially eight inches of snow that was expected where my wife and I live in Texas.

I took my wife into work that morning and I came back home and I knew I had to walk the dog. These kinds of days I do not enjoy because she enjoys the snow and she forgets to do her doggy business and I have to spend at least more than 30 minutes in the snow.

While my wife was at work, which I had no idea when she was coming home and there is a chance she is not coming home until the next day. I have express to everyone in one of my blogs that how much I appreciate my wife. I do not have words to describe, but if someone is making all the money in the household and she put in many hours at work and of course, it takes a toll on her physically and mentally.

One day she came to me and said baby, if it is okay with you can I have a cat? Now my wife loves cats I am beginning to wonder if she would take any animal in if she could just to rescue it that is her personality she has a big heart for anyone or any animal. Unfortunately, I am highly allergic to some type of cats. While my wife was at work, I decided to sculpture a cat in the snow with whiskers and a tail. I called my wife up and I said baby you ask me for a cat, so guess what we have one on the porch waiting for you when you come home. Her reply was well because it is cold why don’t you bring it in and let it have a warm place and give the cat some food. I knew at this time my wife was clueless on what I was really telling her and I told her honey the cat is frozen. I did not want to go in details but I knew she was not thrilled to hear that her husband called her and said that there is a frozen cat on the porch waiting for her to get home.

There is a picture of it.
Well while she was on the phone, she told me that she had to work until the next day, which she said she could not give a time when she will be off work however; she will call me and keep me updated on what time. My wife loves these kind of days when it snows hard because she grabs all the overtime she can get her hands on.

On Friday the 12, my wife calls me at 1pm and says ok please come and get me from work I am so ready to come home now. My wife sounded exhausted, I know what was on her mind, and that was a shower and a bed, which, she knew that was not going to happen because she had to go to the group home that she originally works at and fill out her time card and paperwork. While she was there I decided to make a snow dog unfortunately, I did not have my camera with me so I can take a picture.

We got back home and I knew she felt great to be back home because with her being gone for over 30 hours she did look exhausted and when she seen the frozen cat she started to laugh. You could see a big relief in her face knowing it was not a real cat. Well she ate some dinner, took a shower which she took a long time in that shower which, is common for her then at 8 pm she went to sleep I do not think her head hit the pillow she was out cold. While she was in bed I decided to go outside and sculpture some more.

I went out with the dog onto the pool area of the apartment complex and let the dog play free on the snow meanwhile, on one of the patio tables. I started the creation of the peak of old sculptures and I made the Sphinx of Egypt and the 3 pyramids of Giza, Egypt. It really took me around an hour to an hour and a half just to do the Sphinx that pyramids they were not that bad and here's a picture of them.

That Saturday morning I got up and went outside to check if they survived because the sun was out and was starting to melt the snow away. I came back in and told my wife that I had a crazy idea about making the Roman Coliseum and I wanted to do it before the snow completely melted away. Therefore, I grabbed my craving tools, went to the pool area, and did my sculpture on the second table. Here is the picture of the Roman Coliseum that I sculpture.

Now, the paradox is that each table on the pool area on the apartment complex. It is separated by the pool. Paradoxically in the geography of Egypt and Rome only thing that divides them is the Mediterranean Sea. I never plan it that way, but the personal on the office make a comment.

I hope you enjoy the pictures and the blog that I have written. Nevertheless, I keep asking you to recommend my blog to your follower’s friends, family members. Everyone you can. That way I can accomplish my dream to become a resident of United States. If you really think I am talented is just half of what you can see. I am a sincere person. I do not lie to know one. I do not like liars so if you reply to this blog. Tell me the God honest true.

Finally, I thank all my readers and actual followers of this blog. I am grateful for all of you God bless you all sincerely yours with all my heart Armando Abreu.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Where society is going:

Lately, I have noticed more and more. How things go around us and around the world, for instance. I would say that it does not matter what color of the skin we are or what type of religion we practice. We are all humans -- and that is the only fact that no one can deny.

Unfortunately, more often than ever, we see people for their color or for their religion. Even for their nationality, I might not be a US citizen yet, or even a resident of United States yet. However, with my point of view I hope that will give you some insights, of how society is going to end if we keep doing what we have been doing for generations.

I will try to go to the root of the problem, I seen how people cheat the system.

Someone told me once. If someone really cares about you, he will hurt you with the truth. However, if they do not care about you, they will kill you 1000 times with their lies.

I was having a conversation with one of my neighbors. I found out that there are people that can help you if they can, and if they want too. However, finding out that even if you try your hardest, people will not understand what is going on. Even on the other side of the coin, knowing that this one exist and they will not even bother in trying to finding out what is going on.

We live at an apartment community that more than often seems to me, they are money hungry. My wife and I notice recently that the office it is not being taking care of on the cleaning part. My wife and I, we being extremely tight on our finances, and we thought why you do not give us a chance to clean the office. Therefore, you can pay us $30 that will help us and that will make the office more attractive and cozy to the public.

Unfortunate, the respond that we have was, -- sorry guys, we cannot help you with that, because you are not a company and you are not bounded and insured and if something happened to you we will be liable. -- for the last five months if not more, that office is not being clean. Therefore, you can imagine what kind of impression give to the new possible tenants or residents of the community.

Another good example will be plasma centers. Usually plasma is on high demand for hospitals, as well as blood, my wife is not able to donate plasma due to medical reasons. However, I can, and we thought, well, I can donate plasma and at least will have $30 to get some food in the house. She calls this place and asks -- do we need any type of documents to bring with us? -- the answer, you have to have your Social Security card and your driver license, which I do have. Therefore, because I do not have a Social Security -- that does mean, that my plasma is not good enough to save lives? Should I bother Then?

It is highly frustrating that the government apparently does not care about anything else other then their own interest, and many of you will think why I am saying this. The reason is that, when my wife took the decision to marry me. Accordingly to some rules. She will not be able to obtain any help. Even when she is a US citizen, who only tells me that your rights as many of you already know, they are not worth nothing. On top of that, she could go to jail, just because her heart told her that I was the right person to be married.

She could not apply for food stamps, but all the cheaters of the system do. Moreover, here is where I am going to hurt some feelings, and I am not generalizing. On the other hand, maybe I will do so. Hispanics, blacks, Hindus, Chinese, they have a bunch of kids and they get the help. Moreover, my wife and I we are not able to have kids on our own and with the procedures, tons of paperwork and money that we do not have. We cannot adopt either.

Sometimes we go to the food bank, because hardly with her check we can afford anything. In addition, we saw people coming to the food bank on a brand-new car or truck still with the temporary plates from dealership and something just clicks on my mind. What is wrong with this picture?

I know, this could sound harsh, but do you think that is right to spend gobs and gobs of money trying to defend the freedom of other countries. When they did not earn it by themselves.

Therefore, leave your own people, your own country defenseless of any terrorist attack, or major natural disaster. Just because, all your resources are being deployed on some other countries.

United States it is known as the land of the free. With this, I mean. Freedom of speech, freedom of expression, freedom from slavery and injustice, and I could keep going on and on.

However, some people will say. Freedom comes with a price with the men and women that serve the country and defend us from harm. In addition, Freedom comes with certain responsibilities, and those responsibilities are infinite and that is how I know you earn freedom.

However, all this that I just say for some, will make a lot of sense and for some, it will not even stick to their skin. Therefore, I could keep going and going, but I do not want to sound like a broken record. If you know that, you are doing wrong. Change your ways if you know that drinking and driving is wrong. Stop doing it. If you know that talking on the phone when you are driving could cause an accident, stop doing it.

If someone should be responsible of your own well-being is yourself. Because if you are not responsible then you will be abusing of that freedom, causing harm to yourself and others -- you would not give a three-year-old kid a gun or a bottle of scotch, because that will be very irresponsible.

Then use your freedom taking responsibilities of your own actions and do it wisely.
Help others the same way you will wanted to be help if you were in need. In addition, if you have a job but your neighbor does not have one. Talked to him and offer him something to do, like doing the laundry for you or mowing the lawn, pay him some money on the measure of your possibilities, but explained that to him, because honestly I don't think he will feel offended by your offering, because any money is better than no money at all.

I hope we help each other and reach for each other. I hope that will change. The darker future, we are facing, and I hope this is not just a dream for a better future, but a reality for all of us. Thank you and God bless you all.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Step into my shoes:

To many of you, this small portion of a blog will have infinite similarities and this is how we can start.

We know the economy is bad but just imagine what it could be. If the entire household depends on eight dollars, and hour and you have three or more than three mouth to feed.

If all this sounds familiar to you is because it is the reality of these days to every single family in every part of the world. Probably the tabulations of money salary wise are different, but the domino effect is the same.

A few nights ago, my wife and I were going through several pieces of invoices of what we owe to the hospitals due to the medical problems she has. My wife and we notice that every single invoice a different color of paper quite fancy to be honest: I wonder why the hospitals charge that much. They have to keep up with the demand of the fancy paper.

If I put the example of how fancy the paper color was, one of the invoices was a two-tone red paper, another one on two-tone paper blue, another a two-tone paper green. in addition, all those color paper just mention degraded into a very nice and smooth, soft colors.

Anyhow, the fact is that as many of you, probably we cannot afford medical insurance. It is getting ridiculous. How a person that works with MHMR could make $8.75 and a gardener makes 75 cents less than the other person, a dishwasher does makes $9.50 an hour.

I am not coming with these numbers just for the hell of it but because I was a dishwasher once. In addition, I was a gardener, and that is how you started hourly.

Now let us go to the imagining part that I mention of the second paragraph again, by now. Your pantry is suffering a severe case of emptiness and you see your partner not being able to work because either he cannot or because no one is hiring or in my case, because you are not legal to work that will make you worry sick.

Then you will have two good candidates, to become sick, to high blood pressure, heart attack, embolism, or just a stroke, one for over doing it, trying to find a better job or another job besides the one that person have, just to try to make ends meet. The other one highly depressed and worry for himself and for the other person.

After all this, I will ask you, is your salary appropriate for the actual times. If you answer, was -- NO -- then what we should do? Banks have a stimulus package. Companies have a stimulus package what do you think your stimulus package would be.

One option could be raising the minimum wages.

In addition, really tabulate how much a person that works with MHMR, an RN, housekeepers, laundry personal. And so on and so on.

For example: doctors, surgeons, lawyers, engineers, architects, CEOs. They have salary and they do not need more money of what they are making because otherwise that will be the law of, let us make ourselves Richer and the poor poorer. If they want to keep making money then they have to sacrifice a little.

Well, I think already spilled my peace of mind here. The rest is up to you. Thank you and God bless you.

Monday, January 18, 2010

As always, I will ask nicely:

For some reason I have been having very little respond from readers and from followers I do not know it because I am not good enough as a writer or because simply I do not have much to say or ask.

On January 1 of 2010, I thought it was going to be another regular day. Oh, boy was I wrong. The same day, our cell phone shut off and Denise went to work as usual taking off a little earlier that day from the house. Usually, she works from 3 pm to 11 p.m.

Exactly at 2:30 PM., something told me to call her however, finding out myself that we did not have phone service, so I tried not to worry. At 2:55 P.M., a neighbor came to the house and told me that I needed to come to her house and call your wife she was in a car accident.

I took off just hoping that my wife was okay. Once I arrived at the neighbors, apartment the phone rang and it was my wife as she sounded scared and shaken up. I was relieved when I heard that my wife did not cause the accident it was the other person.

The time of the accident, she and the person that was involved decided not to call the cops and move away from the scene. With my wife, only about 3 minutes away from her job they decide to go to her work, check out everything, and switch information. He admitted to my wife that it was his fault because he was not paying attention to the road I wonder why he was on his cell phone and he was driving with his arm in a sling.

I spoke to the person myself on the phone and ask him questions and every question he could not reply logically I assumed it was because he was confused due to the accident. When my wife got back on the phone I ask her not to let the person go so I could see the damages well by the time I arrived he already left. My wife said that the person wanted to go and here is the number where he could be reach if we need anything. I checked out our car and fortunately, the damage on our car was minor thank goodness.

I had to take my wife to the ER because she bumped her head and finding out it was a contusion, which I was happy for that nothing, major.

Two days later, my wife called the person and the person did not answer the phone however, she left a message and he never returns her call at work. On January 11, 2010, my wife goes to work and finding out that there was a message on the door stating to call this person. His father and he met her at her work so they could get more information as they proceed on talking the father said well it is your fault how my son could cause the accident because he is extremely cautious. My wife was furious at this point and she said well I am as well cautious and the father said well according to the insurance company they think that there is no way it could be his fault.

Thank goodness, my mother helped us with getting our phones turned back on. We finally called our insurance, explain to them about the accident, and see what we need to do now. Finding out that our insurance need to be renewed oh great and we never received anything on this. Can anything go right for once?
To make maters worse when she received her check we had to put most of it towards the rent and we still have late fees. Thank goodness, she received a gift card for Christmas at work and we used that for a little food what 20 dollars can get us. We also had to have gas so we put 10 dollars in the tank and here we are totally, broke and it is not easy. Trust me I am not saying it is probably not easy for you as well.

My wife suffers with high blood pressure and if she goes through her work to get health insurance they will take 200 dollars out every month and she only brings home 1200 dollars a month. Well that means it will be only 1000 dollars a month and we cannot do that. We are gasping for air, we put our heads together to come up with solutions, and it is hard. My wife is trying to find another job and you know how hard that is.

I know this might sound like a broken record. I want to become legal resident, to help my wife and we cannot afford the cost of it. Moreover, I cannot work legally until is done.

Anyway, I just wanted to bring to your attention as readers of this blog that I have been having certainly a real pleasure on writing stories for you. Unfortunately, I am having a difficult time trying to think anything else besides my own problems and my own worries. Of course, nevertheless, the facts that recently I asked help to all, on donating to help us out with my papers for immigration, which only one of my readers did. I will not say names, but I already extend my deepest gratitude to that person.

However, As always, I will ask nicely to all again two simple things the first one will be the most easier to do. That is to recommend my blog to every single one of your followers and please include on your recommendation. A small NOTE explaining that probably I am not probably the best blog ever, but I do need help desperately. Just do it on your own words.

The second thing I am asking you is, I do understand economy is the worst. In addition, everybody is saving their money and trying to provide for their own families. However, a small donation of five dollars or more if you can. It will be highly appreciated the same way the people who make that wonderful contribution of $ 20 to me. She did it by clicking into the donation button of the PayPal, which I know that she have the peace of mind that the transaction was successful in a proper way and all information related to that credit card it is encrypted that no one will see it, not even me.

Please, do not worry about your safety on the transaction. I will e-mail a personal letter not only to thank you. Nevertheless, to give you updates through e-mail.

I pray to God to give you blessings for reading these lines and taking that precious time to understand us. My wife and I we are hopeful that things will get better. Thank you again and God bless you all.

Always yours: Armando and Denise.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

An angel disguised as a woman with a huge and generous heart:

A couple of days ago, when I was feeling really down emotionally I start replying to all the blogs, I follow and discover that one of them was an angel disguised as a woman. I know the economy is really in bad shape. However, she was able to donate to my blog. $20 through paypal for what I became speechless and very grateful.

I should say for whatever reason she did it proved to my wife and me that there are still great people out there. However, hope is the last thing we should lose. I know there is something inside each and everyone of us that care for others and that is what is describe as all of us being unique. Because before leaving someone suffers pain or anguish, we will give ourselves the thought of, what if I was on his shoes. In addition, we help some people with prayer. Some people help with money, and some people help with either moral support, clothes or food.

I have seen it with my own eyes. More than once, why wait until a tragedy occurs, to help others this has been on my mind all the time. However, I wish I could help others the same way I have been help, but at this time, it is impossible. I have to think if by any means I can help others, once I become a resident, I will do so with open heart.

I know a difficult topic that not many people touch, but it is anything on my physical body that can save lives. I will do so. That is another reason I wish to be a legal resident of United States that I can became an organ donor. In case of something happened to me or in case someone needs something from me that can save his or her life. In addition, if the economy changes for the better in the future, I will also help.

I reply to her to let her know how appreciative and grateful I am to her, because with her actions she throws to me a life jacket, without knowing if I will be helping others the same way She helped me, but I will. In addition, that is what it makes us closer to each other as humans.

When I saw that, act of generosity. I cry like a baby, and being long time since I cry. She did give me hope she gave me the strength to keep going. In addition, for that I am grateful. She did restore my faith in my brothers and on sisters.

Also read: Hello my fellow bloggers "and wishes to all in this upcoming new year" Then everything will make sense to you.

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